OK, so as you can all see, I haven't been on this thing since last summer.  But I was sitting here by myself doing absolutely nothing, so I started reading everyone's entries, and it made me want to write and let everyone know what's going on lately.

Wellllll, drama's over, thank the Lord.  It really sucked this year.  And I'm not saying it for the reasons that you might think I am.  It just was a horrible year, for a lot of people.  MPPP is no longer a family, it's just another high school club.  It was the worst thing to come to terms with.  The hate and the nastiness and the talking was just unbearable.  And those people it was directed towards did not deserve it whatsoever.  I don't even want to go fully into it because it just bothers me so much.  Ragtime was the only year when we were a true family, and I wish it was like that again.  Godspell was pretty close to that, too.  But Aida is when it started and it was just got worse this year.  I feel bad for the groups to come.  But enough about this.



Deciding what college I'm going to is tougher than I thought it was going to be.  I'm still waiting for one more letter but I just want to know that I'm set.  I want to be done with everything so that I can enjoy the rest of this year and do what seniors are supposed to the last three months of their senior year.  I hope it ends good.  And I hope I'm happy one year from now.

Because I'm not really that happy right now



I remember now why I stopped writing in this thing.  I don't really like to write.

Blah blah blah blah blah.

I'm not going to start off my entry with some boring annoying lame complaint or whiny sentence.  I'll start off by saying that this summer has been going pretty good besides the fact that I work weekends and wake up at 6:30 am during the week.

Wait, did that just sound boring, annoying, lame, and/or whiny?  =/

Whatever...I'm enjoying it for the most part.  I want to go to Deer Park soon.  I miss my cousin and Seanie and Little Ryan and everyone there.  I felt great when I was there, so I think I need to get back there soon.

But I also need to work tons of hours...because I need to make $1100 by September.
It's difficult.  I HATE SAVING MONEY...lol.

Uhm, boy department?  I'm not sure what's going on.  It's all non-exclusive...and I like it.  But I always wish there was more. Not with EVERYONE...just like, one person.  But whatever.  Summer's not about that.



I think that everyone should call me and hang out with me.  Because that's how cool you guys are.=]  And that's all.<3

Ok, SO.

Uhm, hmmmm.

I guess I kicked off summer already?

I need to remember to eat daily...yeah...I gotta do that. =/ hahah

So I failed the math regents by like, minus a million points.
I have us history and bio next week, then prom. then effing summer.
Then driver's ed.  And work.

And my summer is going to be a waste now hahah.

We'll see what happens.

I think I lead a really exciting life but I don't like to share every detail with the world.
I think that's a step in the right direction.=]



OK, that's all I need to say hahaha. byeeeeee<333333333

OK, so I figured that because I'm done with classes, it was about time to update. =]  

But, I really have no idea what to talk about.  Things have just been happening.  I've been so stressed out from school but finally I'm relieved.

Uhm...prom is in two weeks and it's gonna be awesome.=]

I have three tests to take and then I'm done and I'll be a freakin' senior.=D



OK, I'm going to stop with this dull entry and remember to update as soon as something interesting happens in my life...hah.

Byeeeeeeeeee.<3

Being at the Wedge makes me feel i n f i n i t e .



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So another awesome weekend has been had.

I missed nearly a full week of school this week...and I probably shouldn't have.  I probably have loads of work to make up, and I have AP tests on Friday and next Wednesday that I'm not ready for at ALL.

I love how it's just clicking now that the next 5 years of my life will depend on how I did this year, and it's too late for me to fix it.  I just hope that I can get into the colleges I want and not end up at Suffolk (no offense to anyone who goes there or is going to go there).  I just don't want to stay home, I CAN'T STAY HOME.

Whatever.

I read someone's blog today where they wrote about how they "appreciate life because it's so perfect and couldn't be better" and that "everyone should feel this way because there is nothing wrong in your life when you listen to a great song and put your feet on the ground."  It kind of bothered me a little bit?  Not that a person can't be happy or anything, but not everyone can be as care free as one person.  I'm not trying to sound emo or depressed or anything of the sort, I just don't like it when people seem very narrow-minded.  Don't get me wrong, my problems aren't nearly as bad as some of those in poor countries where there's no money for food or people who have terminal illnesses, or anything of the sort.  But I do have issues that I have to deal with, that makes life less perfect, and I think people should understand that.

And I hate when people resolve to "getting it crunk" and "getting trashed" in order to have fun.  It frustrates me to no end when people think there's "nothing else to do" but smoke or drink.  GJSDKAGL;ASDG;.

OK, I'm done bitching.

Bye.<3

So this weekend, was THEE best weekend.  It was an extreme blasttttt.=]

Friday night I went to Cassie and Kelsey's Dad's house downport, and I stayed till Sunday night basically.  We went down port like, 5 times in two days.  And we went to the pier every time, AND I GOT COLOR. Oh Em Gee.  It's a miracle.

So Saturday wen went down port at around 1...then went back to the house, then went down port again around 4ish with Jordan, then went back to the house again, then we were about to leave for Cool Beanz Cafe to see Lights in the Sky, BUT the show got cancelled, soooo Ryan, Chris, and James came down port.  Then the next day we went to the Polish American Hall to check it outttt and then we went down port again with Jordan.  FINALLY we chilled anddd I went home.  The end.

It was quite a stupendous weekend and I think that it needs to happen again.=D


Last week was such a good week.  I was in the best mood Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.  And it carried on until yesterday too.  I'm in a decent mood today, too, though.=]  There's one thing that could've made it great, but it was good nonetheless, and tomorrow ill be great.=D

WHY AM I SO CORNY AND LAME LATELY.
I have no clue.


And I need to make up my mind.  I mean, being open-minded and optimistic about everything is good, but when you're too open-minded, you just leave yourself in a big mess, and I have no idea how to get myself out of it without hurting people.

So I apologize in advance to anyone I might end up hurting.  I'm so sorryyyy.=/



On a lighter note:

Me and Sarah started our Tour de Miller Place on Sunday.  We've rode our bikes about 25 miles in 2 days.  If you call us, we'll be glad to stop by your house on the way.=]

I think that's about it hahaha.  Byeee!

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I hardly update...sorry.=/

Well, let's see...



There's so much that needs to be done that I can't handle it anymore.  I'm way behind in everything that I need to do that I'm not even realizing how much this is going to effect my future.  If I don't buckle down and get everything done NOW, where am I going to end up in a year and a half?  I'm graduating next year.  Shit.  It's not getting through my head that I need to stop wasting time doing unimportant things and start paying attention and doing work and getting ready.

It's all extremely stressful.  And to top it off, everything that I need to get done or do all has to be done at the SAME TIME.  It's like I can't even get a break.  I'm so sleep-deprived that I can hardly keep my eyes open anymore.  The next break we really get is summer, and that's going to be too late.  I need to focus ASAP.


In other news, I figured out what my problem is.  I jump into things too quickly, and don't think about the consequences first.  That's how I end up getting hurt.  And I always start out saying, "Oh, no, it'll be fine I won't think too much into it, it's really nothing I know that."  But then I end up getting myself deeper and deeper into it and I always end up falling through in the end.  I know this is really vague but I'm sure most of you can probably figure out what I'm referring to since it's nothing specific.  But that's really what I need to fix, because it messes up a lot of things.


It's time for a break.  I really need a break.

I would just like to sayyyyy...


Thank you to everyone who made my birthday super amazingly awesome.=]

I had a really great day because lots of people helped!


I owe you all big hugs and kisses.<33

I'M 17 TODAY!  =D


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